little blackbird (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} blackbird__red) wrote,@ 2008-06-02 13:49:00 |
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I feel like a burden
I feel like I do not deserve love
I feel like I do not deserve contentment
I feel like I do not deserve stability
I feel like I do not deserve happiness
because in the end... timing, an external force... will find a way to destroy it, to take it away. And then you were just a fool.
I feel like I do not have any faith left. No faith in humanity, at least faith in my humanity and the people around me. No faith in love, no faith in fate, no faith in God (a god or any external force)... I do not have faith in the future because no matter what I do it never feels enough, it never feels good enough or worthy.
What happens when you are too afraid to be happy
What happens when you believe in someone, when you believe in an idea
I feel like I do not deserve love
I feel like I do not deserve contentment
I feel like I do not deserve stability
I feel like I do not deserve happiness
because in the end... timing, an external force... will find a way to destroy it, to take it away. And then you were just a fool.
I feel like I do not have any faith left. No faith in humanity, at least faith in my humanity and the people around me. No faith in love, no faith in fate, no faith in God (a god or any external force)... I do not have faith in the future because no matter what I do it never feels enough, it never feels good enough or worthy.
What happens when you are too afraid to be happy
What happens when you believe in someone, when you believe in an idea
